The Young Man 's Journal

I questioned myself , why can i be so positive but yet so negative ... A simple sentence that someone combined unintentionally could be a sword that hurts me deep into my heart . A candy that given by someone normal can bright up my day . While walking around , i amazed to see the creation like flowers and tree of God but sadness just filled my heart when i saw those little kids that asking for food , those adults that have no pride but live so hopeless ............................................... So simple but yet so complicated . So easy but yet so hard .  God has given me the very rich emotions , the emotions that feel .....I feel the people around me , i know the feeling when your parents about to divorce , i know the feeling that when you feel like God leaving you , i know your feeling when someone look down on you , i know your feeling when you break with your couple , i know your feeling when you lost your phone . I know all that because i experienced it .  Em...

I was thinking about my dad last night .  Lying down on my bed , with the relaxing music i played to prepare myself for a journey in my dream  I was thinking to have supper with my dad when i go back to Sabah during my semester break,  think about last time , my sisters and i will be very  happy if our dad brought us for supper .   Really miss you dad .  I have a lot to learn from my dad this time i go back ,  i want to get financial knowledge from my dad , and tell him my plan after i finish my degree . Just pray to God that he will keep my family in hand .  Amen 

I wrote this article when I was sitting down in Starbucks , I saw a girl with a white guy . No discrimation just rethink about the prostitutes I saw on the streets the other day .  A girl will only give her precious thing to the man that she loves   I saw many girls on the street provide massage to the man that passing by , verbally is massage but you know what is the extra service provided next .  They are selling their body for money .  I always feel so sympathy to them , because they have to have sex with the man they don't love ...and the society today will judge them through their eyes , they are below the standard of living and they are the rubbish of the society , the reason of broken family .  Can you imagine what kind of life they are living in ?  It is a life that is dark and with no hope , I believe they have a strong guilt in their heart . Because they don't feel the love anymore , they don't feel the acceptance ....

I just finished the movie “Son Of God” It happened long time ago , but the feeling is so real . Jesus said “ Blessed are those who don’t see but who believe in him” , you might said these are all story that made by the man . Sometimes we  harden our heart , we will not admit we are all sinners . We cannot see God and God is something that made to comfort our soul only . Friends , what are you breathing in ? You are breathing in oxygen right ? But do you see oxygen ? How do you know that is oxygen ?  Can you stop breathing it in ?   Truth needs not evidence to support , because truth cannot be changed . Truth is always there and with our limited intelligent how are we going to fully understand the thing that beyond our level of thinking ? Ask you a very simple question , will you let a 5 years old kids to mark your degree paper ? Logically no , because even if you let the 5 years old kid to mark your paper ,  you will get back the paper with a hous...

不懂我们是否还记得以前那个因为一点小事而发脾气的自己。  别人比我们拿的多了一些，我们就开始觉得世界是不公平的。 无可否认，我们确实因为生活中的小小不如意而感到沮丧升至影响了我们身边的人。 手里拿着爆米花，嘴里嚼着的爆米花以让人回味起当初的点点滴滴。 记得从前，我因为一包妈妈卖给我们的爆米花而骂我的姑姑，当时真的觉得很生气， 觉得她不应该在还没经过别人的允许就吃别人的东西。  今日想起，才觉得自己很幼稚 。  有时候，一时的脾气带来的破坏力足于把一段经历已久的感情桥梁给毁掉，幸运的话，至少还能和气的说话 ， 但是时间短暂，我们又有多少时间能浪费在这些脾气上呢？  小孩争吵可能是为了玩具，糖果。 少年吵架可能是为了朋友及潮流 成年人吵架可能是为了成就与地位 已婚的可能是因为不合一的想法，  老年人，可能因为生活中的忧闷 。 其实，我们为什么利用那么多时间在这些小事呢” 从今开始，我们是否应该思考及给予更多的原谅呢 珍惜身边的人 吧。 

When i was still a 10 years old kid .... Inside a car , going back home from grandpa's house ....  My little sister said : "Look , i feel so pity about the dog that died on the road because of the cars" I replied  : "The dog should die , the dog should be careful while crossing the road " My mom raised her voice a bit louder and told me that this is not the reaction that i should have , this is not the right feeling , instead i should feel pity about that dog ............. I think that's the time my thinking started to change , change to someone that have mercy and love . I was a very naughty boy when i was still a little monkey , i shouldn't categorised myself as naughty , playful and active are more suitable .  Back when i was still a kid , Nokia was a very famous phone , and until now i don't know what  is so fun about the snake game in the phone .  When my mom was sleeping in the noon , i was like a pink panther , i took ...

      18 years are not so long nor short . Think about what have i done for the past 18 years , i feel so proud that i was brave enough to face those challenges in life . 18 years ago , i was born , i thank God for giving me the chance to play this game and of course parents especially my mom who suffered extreme pain while delivering me .       So , what is 18 going to be ? I was very excited on how my birthday is going to be celebrated ... And here , i would like to "showoff" how awesome was my 18th birthday . A few months ago , i told my mom i want to go back to Sabah exactly on my birthday date . That's because for me , home is the best present and i miss Sabah so much . So my mom booked the flight ticket for me . Some of my friends who asked me whether i am free or not on my birthday , i will say i am going back to Sabah on that day ..... :) So the first surprise came a few day before my birthday ....(4th Dec ) My friend Rebe...