The Young Man 's Journal

       I want a meaningful life ....        I wish I could know the purpose of my life , the purpose why i have been created              I was lying on my bed and thinking what have i done these days .. It's meaningless and wasting my time. I love the world more than my God .      [Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, love for the Father is not in them. 1 John 2:15]          I feel so bad and i know i  was escaping , i don't want God to see me ...It's hurts you know ...some of my friends may say i'm expert in Christianity in my age but i'm the only one who knows that i'm not but a very weak christian . Soon , i entered a different world , it's my dream , my friends and i were i n a reso rt ... That resort look ed ver y spacious and it's not cheap at all ... We were playing and making jokes and at the s ame time , i saw a big and beautiful pool at outside of the res ort fro m the window s.... W

       It's holiday and i was cleaning my room ...You can see a stack of paper here and there .... Notes and exercises... and a lot of things around my room . It was not organize at all and i want to make it neat and clean by dividing every papers according to subject and priority ...To make everything complete , i had decided to go back to school and take my  English subject file for inside of it got a lot of handouts .       It had been a week i was not here at my school... but nothing changed ... still the same buildings , same guards.... Haha... [high expectation] .. so , i was searching for my fi le for thousand and million times but i still could not get it .... I thought i had taken it home during the exam period . That 's it ? Nope , i flip m y friend's file , wow , that f ile was very complete ,awesome and we ll organized .... I have no idea on how i found this essay in his file and that essay make s me feel so guilty and sad unt il now ...