The Young Man 's Journal

     Soon , i will have no time for those who shows no concern about me ...Ya , i am damn sad and it's hurt ....the pain inside my heart ....It's really hard to explain it here ...Sometimes , what were you saying or asking are actually showing that you don't care .     I am sorry for the readers of this blog , but i am damn Emo right now and you can leave or you can just be the audience and listen to me .... What do you feel when someone forget his/her promise to you ? Some more if it's from someone important to you ...? Damn sad right ? ya ... i know that we have to try to understand but now i learn that it's better for us not to make a promise to someone easily ......   What do you feel when someone is replying a "Haha", "K" , "Hehe" to you ....These short messages are actually reflect that you have no mood to chat ... For i am that kind of person ..If i have no mood to chat ...i will reply only a "Haha" to you ...........

    I believe if you have a lot of Chinese friends in your Facebook  especially those youngsters then you will see today a bit different in their Facebook status .... for it is 520 day !       So , what so special on the date 05.20.2013   520 stands for "I Love You" ... Why ? In Chinese I Love you is 我爱你(wo ai ni ) 520 ( wu er ling ) The pronunciations are almost similar .... Cool ?      On this day , most of the couples will go out and enjoy their world :) . They will snap some sweet pictures that make you feel so jealous ..... Haha .... It's not the point .            Hmm... I am still single ... So 520 is nothing ... But I still wish others happy 520 ... For I love a lot of people ... And today , I realize that I can live without someone I love for so long , I still can laugh and happy for I got the one who loves me so much , if someone does't love you then just say good bye , ...

       I miss you so much Jesus  ! I wish you could see this post and come to me right now... It's really sad when I don't know what I actually wanted  to achieve in my Life ... When I was in your hand , I feel so warm and lived a meaningful life . You want us to live a holy life , the best plan and the best life you had given to us ... But , God , I'm sorry ...I'm sorry .... For I did't ...... I don't like this kind of life .... It looks nice but it's actually dark ....you dislike this kind of Life !      Jesus , in the bible , you told us that you will never leave us alone. It's all the lies of satan , I should't use my feeling to decide the presence of you but I should use your promise as my root of believing . I don't know if I could give you every part of my life but Jesus , please walk with me , hold my hand and take me as your children .       You're the king of king and my beacon of hope ! Make me a stron...

"God , thank you for I have a grandmother who loves me so much ...My grandmother all the way to Keningau for she thought I have no money to spent ...even if I have to cancel my early plan with my friends just to take care of her and bringing her around but it worth it ... I am grateful for I have the chance to hold her hand again and I believe it's a blessing ... God , bless her and take care of her ... Friends , my grandma told me she feels so happy to have lunch with me ..."   P osted On Facebook : M ay 13 , 2013  I have a grandma and she loves me so m uch .  To Be Continu ed . ..    

      I have a friend ....oh nope .. should be i have a brother right now .... Who is he is not really a matter as his story will be the main topic on tonight.       It's 6:30am in the morning , moreover , today is Saturday , should be very great right ? I told myself that i have to wake up right now for he is coming to my house on 7:00am but the dream i dreamed was fantastic like a roller coaster and it's hard for me to get up ... HAHA ... forget about it , when i woke up ,it's already 6:55am ..... Arhhh.... What should i do right now ? I haven't prepare anything yet and make up my room ... My image is going to be spoiled ..... Opps...Suddenly,  i got a message , he told me he would arrive a bit late , may be around 7:20am ..... I was like ... Oh ... Thanks God  .... So , what i did .... I cleaned my room and myself and went out to buy some breakfast . Life's good all the time ... haha....7:25am .... He was here and downloa...

       I want a meaningful life ....        I wish I could know the purpose of my life , the purpose why i have been created              I was lying on my bed and thinking what have i done these days .. It's meaningless and wasting my time. I love the world more than my God .      [Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, love for the Father is not in them. 1 John 2:15]          I feel so bad and i know i  was escaping , i don't want God to see me ...It's hurts you know ...some of my friends may say i'm expert in Christianity in my age but i'm the only one who knows that i'm not but a very weak christian . Soon , i entered a different world , it's my dream , my friends and i were i n a reso rt ... That resort look ed ver y spacious and it's not cheap at all ... We were playing and making jo...

       It's holiday and i was cleaning my room ...You can see a stack of paper here and there .... Notes and exercises... and a lot of things around my room . It was not organize at all and i want to make it neat and clean by dividing every papers according to subject and priority ...To make everything complete , i had decided to go back to school and take my  English subject file for inside of it got a lot of handouts .       It had been a week i was not here at my school... but nothing changed ... still the same buildings , same guards.... Haha... [high expectation] .. so , i was searching for my fi le for thousand and million times but i still could not get it .... I thought i had taken it home during the exam period . That 's it ? Nope , i flip m y friend's file , wow , that f ile was very complete ,awesome and we ll organized .... I have no idea on how i found this essay in his file and that essay make s me feel so gui...